Hakuyume

Ohoho. I am back people!

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 09:53:37 GMT

Amazingly. :D

Hoh. I was watching Koizora starring Haruma Miura and Yui Aragaki. Nya~ I feel like a Wapanese now. xD Well, Keisuke Koide looks like an ex of mine. Who would have figured how much I freaked out when I saw him acting as Yu at the beach where I got a closer and more careful look on his face. o.o

Now... WORLD is still going on. It's terribly active. :D

And I'm in love with the Japanese language. I was in French class yesterday because the Malay teacher was not there. Ohoho. I understood basically almost everything. French is just like English... So really, not much difference. xD

This is hard... I still hate my modem. I mean, come on; even downloading stuffs is hard. ;A; Ah, I believe I have not anything useful to put up here... Eh. I suck and be it. xD

Throwing in some crap.

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 15:38:35 GMT

Well.. Yeah. Just throwing in what my homework for English is... Descriptive writing. Of a person. That our teacher knows. So... I decided to do someone special... And here it is. It's pretty long so if you don't really like reading long stuffs - shut the tab or window off. Not worth of it.

Knowing this person, with the well-known nickname as Max - or the full nickname version as Maxwell Pevenson; he is a friend of mine. Or rather, a very close friend. As an introduction - I can say that he is a really nice person and a truly pleasant person to be with. Truly, and honestly, he is a man of his own words - you shall not disagree by this.

To describe him with physical attribute at first - I can describe him as a start from his hairstyle and down to the tip of his toes for I have known him for more than just two mere years. He has short and thick black hair - seeming straight and a little frizzy; but soft and clean - anti-dandruff; I envy him for that. He has neat sideburns that fade right below his ears. His forehead is partially covered by his short and small bangs. Below the forehead a pair of evenly set apart small eyes and brows that curves upwards like a worried person, but his eyes are undoubtedly gentle and dark that they swallow you whole. His skin is dark - not as dark as coal; it would be more like hot chocolate fresh out of the oven, though with a rough texture.

His nose is round and pretty big too, though in proportion to his chubby cheeks with dried pimples... That are not so visible I can say. His cheeks would be those of the types that everyone would love to pinch - it has that effect on me. He had told me once that those cheeks are his trademark, he had grown with it since he was young. I still have not gotten myself to see how he looked like back then when he was younger and innocent. There is a mole, near his right sideburn, something I can call attractive. As for his lips - they are pink; they look somewhat soft and jelly-like - though I assure you that I am not the only one in the school who notices this small detail. He drinks a lot of water - with that, above his pink lips is a shaved mustache, who knows if he has a goatie? I remember he did, back in the last year - I am unsure of it now.

His chin is blunt yet perfectly shaped. With that, it marks his face unique - even I cannot find the ability to use a word to describe his face-shape other than unique. Down to the line of his jaws, he looks as though he has the most unique appearance amongst every people that I have made friends with. When he smiles, it is an expression of his that I can smile at - his laugh can make me laugh along and his voice is deep, friendly and gentle. I can go on and on with a book just describing this one special person.

Moving on to describing of his body, I will describe it briefly for I have taken so much space just describing his face. Basically he has a really big build, standing approximately at 165 centimeters and weighs about 65 kilograms.

... And I am not done yet. This had taken me about one and not half pages, but one and more than a quarter pages. Long paragraphs I have made, I know. My handwriting is tiny yet I have taken so much space. What in the world is wrong with me, I do not know.

Long time no see... >.>

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:15:49 GMT

I have been ditching you and I really am not pleased with myself for this. xD

So well, I'm doing so fine at school - took the Sciences stream without a problem. And in the same class as my crush! You know how ecstatic and embarrassed I was when I heard my name just after my crush's in the class announcement?! Gosh, for all the past three years I'd been waiting for this... And finally!

Since we're in the same class - I tend to be more paranoid of getting a question wrong so I am doing good at school. Really good. Add Maths is fun! The subject itself is enjoyable!

Sure, as usual; my mum would restrict us from the net on weekdays... And you know how much of a fail that is?! Dx Anyhow, screw life for being such a sucker. x) More singing and translating and drawing. I know, trust me, I'd been doing so many arts these days that I keep on getting comments from people all around me. FAIL. I am EPIC FAIL YOU MAY CALL ME!!!

Me and Adelle seemed to have... Made a special bond. We are in the same class and we tend to talk about private stuffs together. I shouldn't really have said bad things about her in the first place. I told you how I am such a failure. EPIC FAILURE IMO. Yeah, believe me. I am an epic failure.

I made a Tegaki account and finally bought a new tablet. I know, right? Haz fails with a mouse. But it's 8x6, can't resist the desire for a tablet. xD I'll be posting my arts in the art atelier on fc2. See ya there for my art stuffs. :D

That is all I have to say for now. Not much rants. :P

Sick stomach.

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 02:40:52 GMT

Apparently feeling really sick in the stomach for almost no reason... Ah well, it feels a little normal any time, should be. XD I have decided that Marynessa'd leave WORLD for MBO and disguise herself as a boy... Did I mention that in the last entry? -coughcough- Well, to add to that bit of information - while designing her as a male - I ended up making her as a real guy... Well, somehow, but childish - as her old self. She'd have a trio team thing - HERE COMES SPOILERS PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE SPOILED - with the legend and a human who was turned into a bird (just like Hakumei and Mel turned into tiger and monkey... Respectively.)

Okay, so the legend shall be named as Estevo and the bird girl as Racula - and they have theme colors for themselves!

Estevo - Red and gray.
Racula - Pink and purple
Marynessa/unconfirmed fake name - Brown and green

And they shall be called Team Brave. Estevo has a claymore - at least, MBO's version of one. Racula has a handgun, a Walther P22, and is left-handed; she is also part bird and very petite due to her small bones while Marynessa/unconfirmed name has a beam spear/lance/scythe thing... Well, and she carries Quartz along except she does not use it and show it to the public.

I have some Marynessa's male name suggestions...

Shillo
Zarak (My sister likes this one...)
Neo
Taya
Nero
Damyan
Vera
Zeferino

My top ones would be Damyan, Zeferino and Shillo... But yeah, I truly fail. 8D

Theme Songs. HARD!

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 13:35:50 GMT

So basically I am thinking of choosing theme songs for my characters. ALL my OCs. Such as Marynessa(she's the best!), Ellone, Carlae, Hazielle, Cain, Rin(newest addition), Seraph, Aulden, thinking of Kaori too... Well, not much... But, Marynessa has her own playlist, except I cannot think of anything more to add for her. I need to expand my music search. >_> I'm sure Hotaru/Star can have "Don't Say Lazy" by Hikasa Yoko(ED for K-ON!), and OMG, KAI! How can I forget that most important character for the Fatal Frame RP?!

One of them should have "Taiyou no Uta" by Amane Kaoru; probably Aulden. Heh.. Or Ellone. The piano version of this song is beautiful. I'm trying to find the karaoke for "celluloid" by Hatsune Miku. ;A; So beautiful when Tourai sings it! And so sad too... Makes me want to cry. Only did today I have heard of complains about my ex-school. The school never had complains before! It's perfect! Not like my current school, really, to be honest.

As you can see, I added a tagboard, so you can chat around there or say something to me. I need to make a free guestbook and it's all organized! This blog is currently very lonely, please spread to whole wide world everyone! Well... Whoever visits this thing. Not like I have goodies. But maybe! I am now starting to continue with pixel goods - doing three requests from Neko-Nagi, Between The Pages and Ringo. These people are awesome, trust me. Between The Pages even featured me on her dA page. I feel flattered~

I know, KoH did so too; on his favorite artist slot. <3

Marynessa's playlist is on my MangaBullet. Might as well make my own version of WORLD soundtrack. I've also started to think of writing songs again. Maybe in the new semester, it will help me a lot when I need to do something during the weekdays when internet's prohibited. XD I can only go over the net at school on weekdays when I'm back in Malaysia. ;A; Sad, eh?

Since I started to use blogdrive, I am starting to loath Wordpress. XD But then, again, what can I do; I still love the professional style they have but blogdrive is more to old-school and vintage-y. :D And hoping that Chi won't leave IIS, or rather, Malaysia, because I want to be in the same bus and her and annoy Kevin(Bella's love... Heh. XD); I needed an online journal... But I am also starting to hate LiveJournal so much. WHYWHYWHY.

-scrolls up, then down-

I rambled so much... This is what happens when I get really absorbed to typing. :|

Is it over? Or is it not? I do not know.

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 01:19:56 GMT

Yeah, well, relationship's gone way too rocky. =|

Really, it's like... I can't even convince him I love him. I really need to wait until I get back to Malaysia and give him his birthday presents. And if he dares to throw them all away, it's fine. I'll have to live with that. I really need Naz's help. I wonder if he can go online right now... Sadly I have no credit so I can't text him... I used the last rm2 just to send my boyfriend a message... To convince him I really do love him and apologize for being harsh. I'm guessing it's just PMS.

Oh, and I worked on the Fatal Frame RP last night:-

Orphanage in Ruins
Believed to have been a prestigious orphanage, Shiawase no Kou was believed to be a religious one too; since it was placed near a Shinto Shrine in the outskirts of Tokyo - it is now deserted and we heard that it was burnt into ruins.

There was once a rumor of the place that it was believed to be an orphanage that takes in kids and perform some kind of ritual involving of beheading these kids by the end of each month.

A photographer made her way towards the orphanage without fear with her assistant along with her; named as Haruka Tsukiko and Jun Akamura respectively, were then reported missing after their sudden obsession with visiting the orphanage - the last person to say that they were the one who had last seen them was the only daughter of the photographer's assistant, Rin Akamura.

- Tokyo Press, May 19th 2009

Plot
Starting of Summer break, schools closed and a small field trip consisting of only six students and two teachers - for local students who are looking for adventure for the summer break, two weeks in Kyoto and two weeks in Hokkaido.

Two teachers are from prestigious schools - one from Arisu Gakuen and the other from Hikari Gakuen; two top international schools in Japan. Probably passing by the Shinto shrine near the ruined orphanage... What should these students do when the bus crashed right at the stairs of the Shinto shrine and the rain was heavy?

Everything about the orphanage shall be revealed throughout the story - but what was worse - these students will need to find something before they could survive their whole time. Once they walk past the Torii gate, they were trapped. They needed to do something before they could escape from the haunted place...

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And yep, got four spots taken already - so now waiting for more boys. Two teachers and I planned to make Kai as Mio's son; and he did not want to create some catastrophe because of his real name so... He changed it into Kai Chishio. I love him, really. He does look like Mio in some ways... But he wears contacts and dyes his hair. :D

Internal Debate hurts.

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 15:47:09 GMT

Seeing at how I am a Fatal Frame geek - I have this itching feeling that I should really make an RP out of it - but that means I will have to squish everything up and create another unique little character. XD

Okay, well, not so; but maybe. I am really itching to create this RP about Fatal Frame so I made an internal debate to it in my head. Since I will be traveling after these few days - and I only get to post during school's recess in the weekdays - I have to squish up my time and compose my posts in my laptop and insert it in my pendrive; in case of any editing needs, that will be pretty hard, or I'll have to spare my free times.

I wanted to do this also because I need some horror inspiration for my Fatal Frame fanfic and Vamiere/Vamlador. But Vampyres and Japanese legends don't match and that is the problem. XD

Right now I'm researching on Shinto religion and practices - and yes, Izumo Kagura because it has something to do with Fatal Frame 4. 8D Why is Asou everywhere? >_o
Other than that, I am also trying to plan on a good story to hook up some people. Meh, I'm trying to create somekind of drama, good settings and also horror. And of course, horror is the essential part. Yay horror~!

Man, I wish I have a good mind and good food beside me in order to think properly. I have done nothing wrong today. (Fasting... Gurh. Stomach. Hurts.) And so, well; here's an update on my relationship with my boyfriend - he told me to grow up. ._.

I was like... What. I never ever in my whole 14 up to 15 years ever consider love as a game. I am mature enough to think of myself and I have thought of my future throughly. Maybe it's because I never told him on what I planned on for my future, acutally. When he told me that I can't even decide a thing, I was like, "Now that's something!" and I thought to myself, I really had been an indecisive person - but not to the extreme.

Well, nothing much to say; I'm brainstorming for the Fatal Frame RP, I don't want it to die. ._. I miss the one back on BCL, but again, there are things to leave. WHY IS IT SO EASY TO CREATE A NEW STORYLINE FOR DIGIMON AND NOT FOR FATAL FRAME?

Next post shall be all what I can get for the Fatal Frame RP... I am completely clueless right now and all I'm looking for is a character concept design.

Really am not feeling good.

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 01:08:45 GMT

I know earlier on I typed a post, and I was sounding truly cheerful and optimistic - or anything close to that... But right now I have something that makes me feel a little off, or sick in the stomach. Just right at the point, I have a knot tied TIGHTLY and SECURELY in my stomach. Makes me want to throw up. Or commit suicide. (But of course, I'm not that emo.)

For the past few days, I had been having a rocky status with my boyfriend - and of course, not good, eh? I was pretending to be happy because I hate it when people get all worried about me when I'm being pessimistic and I would always think I basically just... Bothering them with my bitching and rantings. This is why I made you, dear.

I received a message from him - and it's early in the morning, of course - right now I'm in Nigeria while he's in Malaysia. Basically, one thing that's wrong is that... Well, it was his message. It's like... I fear that I am going to lose him. He admitted that there are so many more beautiful girls than I am, even hot and sexy - that would be obvious of course - come on, look at me, who wants a shrimp?

He told me that he doesn't know why did he even chose me. Na, as for that; I don't know why either. I'm not pretty, nor am I lovely or pleasant to look at, not even my personality is decent. I am indecent for one, really; I have to admit that. Despite how I can be mature at times and also be a good girl - I am not... Decent. Not at all. No one ever admitted if I am.

Other than what he said, he said he needed me. But I can't tell... Either that was the truth... If he needed me for just pleasure... I would need a bucket for throwing up right now. If he really does need me for his life; for him to carry on, then I guess I won't need the bucket for throwing up - but what sickens me is that the fact he looks at others... And really, I am a green-eyed monster.

I am the type that would look/turn away without saying anything when I get jealous, if not that; I'd run away to somewhere alone. I am the loner type - I love being alone when something like this happens even though at the same time I need something/someone to listen to it... A decent blog is all I need in order to get myself together. It won't rant back at me.

See.

Hi there. :D

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 23:16:33 GMT

... Shoot. My friend's attitude is rubbing onto me. XD

Well, I just managed to be done with the layout and all - Blogdrive is better than Blogger in my opinion! I am a bored person... You can all tell. I draw, sing and dance... And write too! Very easygoing and flexible on the net, but very shy and private in real-life. Weird, eh? I find that pretty normal now. Most of my friends are like that too.

As you can see at the side of this blog, my name here is emolicio. Hi. I would like to be called as Emolicio, Chou, Haz or Haze - whichever as long as it's not a bad name. Welcome me here a bit. :D

I role-play a lot, so don't mind me talking about RPs in my posts - like the characters I featured up there - well, they are Hakumei and Aulden... Hakumei's the half-tiger and Aulden's the older-looking one. Get it now? Yeah, good. They are from the WORLD RP - the most active and fast RP I have ever joined in my whole life! We are planning on turning it into a novel saga - and I'm on my way to finishing the cover - yet to be edited and finish the coloring up.

We also have a WORLD wiki, seeing that we also need to update ourselves and make a summary from the whole load of pages... Well, click here for the wiki. It is all done by our small crew - and despite how we are just a handful of students from wherever in the world; we are pretty close actually!

Most of all, I don't want anyone to dare steal any of the ideas from WORLD, because I am really proud that WORLD will be turned into a novel saga and also a manga - our small team's work. And please do not steal the image up there, those two are mine and they have (almost) nothing to do with yaoi, fangirls. :)